the twilight zone

im here but not really. they see me but they really don't.

this is the twilight zone.

yesterday, i spent half the day with an unfaithful man. he's in love with a woman who is not his wife. he's suffering from a hurting heart since the woman he loves moved away. far away. because they decided to do the right thing.

i should be appalled. what he did is a mistake. he was wrong. he took for granted the woman he vowed to love until death before God and man. he put his children aside for another woman. i should condemn him for bringing about every loving woman's greatest fear. but i didn't. i didn't cast stones at him. i couldn't.

he's a friend. he's hurting. most of all, he trusted me with his confession. i couldn't get the nerve to condemn him. not when he's in pain. who am i to condemn him anyway? besides, he's doing his best to stand up for his decision to do the right thing. he's doing the best he can to stand up for his wife and his children even though the pain is so great. when he couldn't stop thinking about her. when he couldn't help himself from reliving the memories they had and letting all the love and pain to come flooding into his system everytime. like a deluge drowning him to the core.

who am i to judge him? all he really did was love another soul apart from himself. that's natural. we're people. we are born with the tendency to love embedded in our genes. we are progammed to love. he just loved.